One of those days

Do you ever have "just one of those days"? I try not to have too many of them but today is definitely one. I would give anything to just go back to bed and start over again. It started when I messed up financial reports not once but twice this morning. Not a big deal? Well it is when it takes so long to do them! And then I find a loose thread on my tank top. Come to find out I have been losing sequins off my top all day! So not a big deal. Well it is the first time that I have even worn this shirt! I am just tired and cranky. Poor TJ is going to have to deal with it tonight! He has already offered to cook dinner and get me a nice hot bubble bath though. He knows me all too well. I don't think I can say it enough, I have a pretty good husband.

An adoption update. Well there is no real update. We are waiting on TPRs and placement calls. The story of our lives. I just seem to be a Scrooge this year. I had a dream earlier this year that we would have a child by Christmas. As it keeps drawing nearer and nearer it just doesn't seem like it will come true. This will be the 3rd Christmas since the miscarriages and the second since we started the adoption process. It just seems to drag on and on. These past 3 years have been pretty tough around the holidays. That first one not only did we lose our babies but TJ's grandmother also passed away. Last year, it snowed so much that TJ and I could not travel to go see family as planned. We were snowed in with nothing to eat but Ramon noodles. This year my uncle passed away and I have another uncle that is really sick and may not make it to Christmas. I am trying to keep my spirits up because this is the time of year to give thanks and to remember that the whole point of Christmas is the birth of my Savior. That is such a great thing that it should out weigh all of the bad. I really am trying to be more upbeat. Maybe after a nap, dinner cooked and a nice hot bath, I will feel more like myself!