Thankfulness

Last year, I did a post a day for the month of November, but as you can tell that did not happen this year! I am a little busy chasing around a very active little boy! I would not change that for the world though. Anyway, back to thankfulness... I am actually just going to list a couple of the things that I am thankful for.
1. I am so thankful to be the daughter of a King! God is the center of our lives everyday. Without Him, I would have nothing. God has so richly blessed me with so much more than I deserve. My life did not turn out the way that I thought that it would, but God had bigger and better plans for me. I am so thankful that He loved me, a wretch, enough to send his Son to die on a cross for my sin. As a mother I can not even begin to understand how hard it must have been to watch your own Son die, and not really watch but to turn your back. I know that I take my salvation for granted at times but it is the most important thing in my life. I just forget the magnitude of the sacrifice made for me!
2. My husband is a real blessing and I am so thankful for him. TJ is my rock and my best friend. We have weathered many storms together that have only made us stronger as a couple and as Christians. I am so proud of TJ, he has grown so much in the past few years. He is really growing and flourishing in his role as the leader of this house and as a christian man. He is the first to remind me that we need to turn things over to God and that worrying doesn't accomplish anything. Lately, ?I have been even more thankful for him. When we found out we were expecting this baby, we knew we were not in for an easy trip. The doctors had told us before that with my history of miscarriages, our chances of losing another baby were even higher than normal. But TJ and I immediately dropped to our knees and really believed God and His word and knew that everything would be fine. Anyway, we found out that I would need to take medication in order to sustain the pregnancy. We did that. TJ held my hand after draw after draw of my blood. Twice weekly visits to the dr 30 minutes away for the first 6 weeks. Then weekly visits after that. One horrifying trip to the dr when I started spotting. And being on such severe restriction that I could barely do more than get up from the bed and move to the couch. TJ was there for it all never accepting anything less from me or from God than the best. His faith was unshakable. He picked up the slack where I could no longer do my normal activities. He did the laundry, took on more responsibility with Jerrett, swept the floors and cooked our dinners. He did all of this without complaining except that I was trying to do too much. I love TJ so much and just thank him for all that he has done these past few months and years. I thank God daily that He chose TJ to be my husband. You hear people say that they love their spouse just as much today as the day that they married them. I cannot say that. The truth is that I love TJ so much more now than I did all of those years before. That was a childish love that has grown into a life sustaining everlasting love. He is my best friend and my husband. I cannot imagine my life with out him.
3. Got to add Jerrett to my list! He is my little man and the answer to so many prayers. I cannot imagine what our lives would be like without him either! He has filled a hole that we did not even know was there! The process to bring him home was not a short one or an easy one but we are so thankful that God led us down that road. Jerrett has the biggest heart of any little boy I know. Don't get me wrong, he is ALL BOY, but he is also very tender hearted. He knows when I am sad or something is bothering me without me having to tell him. As much as he loved going to rodeos, he hates seeing the bull dogging and team roping because he is afraid that it hurts the calves. His biggest fear is making me or TJ not happy with him. I hope that he always remains tender hearted. Our prayer for him is that he grows up to be a manly man of God but to remain gentle and tender in spirit. That is something that is so unique to him and I love getting to see him develop into that man everyday. I know that he is only 4, but you can catch glimpses of what is to come. I love that little boy with all my heart and know that God has big plans for him. I am also so thankful for how far Jerrett has come in 9 short months. We still have a long ways to go as far as attachment and true bonding, but he is doing so well! He definitely knows who his mommy and daddy are and we are working on the stranger danger part and appropriate interactions with others. You can see the attachments that form in his small world and it is such a blessing! I thank God daily for Jerrett and bringing him into our lives.

There are many other things that I could list as things that I am thankful for but I am not sure if there would ever be enough time for me to list them all. So to sum it up, I am thankful for the life that God has blessed and trusted me with. There is nothing that I would change. I know that my life is not perfect by many standards but we are made perfect in our imperfections. I am happy with my life and I am one blessed momma!